I am not quite sure how I am feeling about all of this.
Today was the first day that our district's teachers reported back to their campuses. And, as you might remember from the Spring, I was NOT re-hired this year, due to budgetary reasons.
I don't know exactly what I thought today would feel like, but this wasn't it.
I'm sad, and MAD, and depressed, and confused, and all sorts of things... I was sure, and I mean SURE, that I was supposed to be teaching again, now that my kids are older. So why aren't I? Don't all schools want teachers who teach for the love of children and for the love of learning? That is what you would want to believe.... Shouldn't it MATTER that I was REALLY pretty darn good at my job? It should matter. Even if it did not.
And, would someone please enlighten me as to what exactly I am going to DO with myself once my kids are gone all day every day? I am going to be so bored I may pull my toenails out.
Ugh. I am trying, and I mean REALLY trying to just relax and BE, and let God lead.
More difficult than it sounds, my friends... :-(
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It makes me sad that you aren't up there also. Coming back was hard with people gone. I missed my momma. Had to have a big talk with myself about how I could manage going to my job like a big girl, since I'm 40 and all...
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